lastnight/today has been extremely productive!!! not only did i go to bed BEFORE midnight (woop woop!), but just minutes after i woke up, i went downstairs and organized the computer room. i folded laundry, did dishes, made a slimfast. then i went upstairs and read part of my summer reading.

i'm reading this quite wonderful book called Lest Innocent Blood Be Shed. it took a lot of balls from my history teacher to get the admistrators to let him give this book out for summer reading because it is controversial. i guess i can see that, but it's about a small Protestant southern town in France called Le Chambon. They hid refugees during World War II without question. the title comes from Deuteronomy 19:7-10: "Therefore I command you, you shall set apart three cities. . . then you shall add three other cities to these three, lest innocent blood be shed in your land which is the Lord your God gives you as an inheritance, and the guilt of any bloodshed be upon you."

anyway so then i took a shower (i got a haircut yesterday and it looks so much better...not much length was taken off {thank the Lahwd} but more layers) and got all sorta-cute, cleaned up my room pretty well (and i think for the first time with my own free will) and did some handwashing. i've never really felt better. hehe!! and i put on makeup and stuff. i guess feeling pretty on the outside makes you giddy on the inside. OH AND this weekend, i'm going to the (new orleans) saints vs. philidelphia pre-season game in new orleans. i really do love football games, and we're on the 10th row. the excitement in the stands (especially saints fans are FANATICAL {no pun intended}) always forces me to stand up and holler with every play. i remember when i was little, i used to sit down and love it when all the adults were standing up yelling and i was the only one sitting down. i felt like i was under the covers, or in a jungle of bamboo. i was alone in a huge crowd of strangers. hah i dunno...i guess i like to stand up and holler now. we're staying at this really bohemian hotel called "the W" hehe!! it's a chain, so i'm sure it's well heard of. and we might go shopping for a new bed for me!!! please pray for it, because my twins sure are getting shorter and less comfortable. and i get to drive there (3 hours) and robert drives back. pretty stellar huh?

tonight i'm going to go to youth group and then i'll probably go for a run!! and try to get almost done with this book. i swear, as many pages i turn, it looks like i'm still in the EXACT same spot as i was before. it feels so hard to make any progress with it. and it was written by a college professor, so it has SOOO much information, my brain could explode. Paix!!

I have this theory, that if we're told we're bad, then that's the only idea we'll ever have. But maybe if we are surrounded in beauty, someday we will become what we see. 'Cause anyone can start a conflict, it's harder yet to disregard it. I'd rather see the world from another angle. We are everyday angels. Be careful with me 'cause I'd like to stay that way. - jewel