maybe i do need help with some things in my life.
i always thought that faith and good will were more important than the little sins. just like how grammar isnt as important as the overall message and structure of a piece of literature.
when i get so meticulous as to even perfect the little things, i almost feel like i've lost my path. i feel like i havent really covered any REAL ground. any important ground. it reminds me of how chlostraphobic the church can get when you know there are billions of people out there who could know Christ as well or better than you do. and you want to help so badly. but they dont have the opportunity. church seems so safe. just as Matthew said, there is no way to write down all of the wondrous things that Jesus did, and just as my pastor said, there is no way to cover all of the teachings and aspects that are involved in true and pure christianity. there is no way to be a pure christian. we had One, but we crucified Him. there is no way to be perfect.
i know that i should get closer to what i want to aspire to. i appreciate the help that is offered. i need it. i really do. it's so hard to swallow my pride and self-righteous arguments and just stick it out and listen to you while you are SO RIGHT. i just dont like getting caught off guard. i dont like being corrected. especially by somebody who is not authoritative. i dont like the way you handled it, nor the way i handled it, but i'm glad that you took heart in it. so thanks.