so wow. things are so much better. and so much different.
i just think that summer makes people lonely sometimes. maybe it's the whole break from school. but the holiday break is good because you're still around people and still around the WONDERFUL cozy feeling of CHRISTMAS. last year was hard. last Christmas wasnt my favorite, but this one i'm feeling will make ammends.

i have noticed that i always find something to worry about. i think about that alot. sometimes when i'm feeling extra light i try to find something to worry about so i won't miss it. i think it's some kind of condition. hah.

i met a genuinely cool person. just really cool. he is a lion. he just has that look. the gentle graciousness and mercy and headstrong ideals and actions. he says there's too much black/white mentality. right on.
i say that there's always gray matter, but not everyone sees the same gray matter as any one else.

does anyone else just SCREAmmmm! i mean just holler. just let it out. when you're driving by yourself and you are just so happy so overwhelmingly happy. the happiness can't stay in your body anymore, it has other places to go, other people to meet, where is it going to go? how is it going to get out? what to do? oh my goodnesss! I"M SCREAMING I'M BELLOWING! WOOOOOOOOOOOoooOOooo. i mean it's completely safe. nobody can hear you. yeah maybe people can see you, but it's private, it's loud, you can feel the intensity. i mean that's where the whole "screaming into a pillow" idea goes wrong...it just goes into the pillow and disappears. with the screaming in the car, you can feel the greatness for a good 10-12 seconds. yeeeeah.
good songs do that to me.
good phone calls do that to me.
being freee for a few minutes does that to me.
knowing that you're in a car, you're going somewhere, you're in control, you're doing everything you can to get there, you can't possibly worry about that...just being light for a few moments just gets me high.
oh the joys of life. WOOOOAOOOAOOOO!

When everybody loves me, I will never be lonely
I want to be a lion
Everybody wants to pass as cats
We all want to be big big stars, but we got different
reasons for that
Believe in me because I don't believe in anything
and I want to be someone to believe - Counting Crows




You're Generally Indie. There's nothing wrong with
this. You like music all over the map and
aren't adversed to listening to some Top 40
here and there. You just know to comment that
The Neptunes are the best producers around
right now. You don't feel the need to debate
constantly with other music geeks, because you
know that Pavement were the best band of the
90s.


You Know Yer Indie. Let's Sub-Categorize.
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