nothing can bite into self-esteem more than a day of clothes shopping. especially trying on. especially for SPRING clothes. especially the things that i dont try on in the store, but think they are going to fit, so by laziness i dont take the time to try things on, but try them on at home. DISAPPOINTMENT. hate this. i'm not eating anything but fruit and water tomorrow. i ahve a ritsy step-family dinner party tomorrow. shoot me now and give me lipo.i cant believe i'm typing this.
how shallow can i be? really. just run. just excercise. just eat CORRECTLY. i'm going to be a lifeguard this summer, i HAVE to eat correctly. one peice. HAVE to eat correctly. agh. gaush.
just to hear the rhythm of copperline. just to feel james taylor's voice attach itself to my skin so lightly as to make my skin rise into goosebumps. just to know the comfort of the lyrics. sooth me now. sooth me.surround me. God, please, oh God, surround me now.

Cast me gentlyInto morningFor the night has been unkind-sarah mclachlan